I need to get this off my mind and fast

Before you continue reading this I need to make one thing clear. YOU DONT HAVE TO READ THIS. This journal was written specifically for me to help get some things off of my mind.

Do you ever just look around and notice that even though something bad has happened it seems like everyone is trying to make the best of the situation they've been given?

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now do you ever find yourself making everyone around you feel just as bad as before if not worse because all your doing is letting the memory of said event take control of your life while everyone else is trying to move on? Cuz honestly, that's what I've been doing for the longest time now.

If youve followed me on DeviantArt for a while and read my past journals then you all know how I am with memories. Its been the one thing I've found myself having the most trouble trying to move on from. And its not all bad I mean with some memories I find that I just look on them fondly and move on but for the past 5 or so years Ive found that there are some memories, good or bad, that I just cant let go of.
But why?
Honestly I have no idea myself. Maybe its because I hate change, maybe its because I often find myself looking back and thinking of all the ways certain things could've gone or how I could've made certain things better. I really don't know but its safe to say I need to do something about this fast. Because lately its not just me that's been affected by my inability to let go of memories. Its starting to affect my friends too. Possibly to the point I'm pushing all of them away.

Like I said at the beginning you didn't have to read this but I needed to get this out and fast.

~ Dizzy Miss Lizzy